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My Little World! 26.7.06
phew.. 1st n foremost.. i'm glad that from my last post till now, after someone who tagged n commented on my previous entry n after my bb's angry reolied to that someone... so far, nth else had been happening in my tag box.. n hopefully it will cont this way... lol.. cos i really dun wan my blog to turn into some unpleasant place where shoutings, scolding n swearing all turn up...
phew.. if u still dun not understand wat i'm talking abt, take a look at my previous entry n then take a look at the tag box where someone under e name "Ming Ge Kuai Bao" tagged... lol.. then u will noe wat i'm talking abt liao...
hmmm... new shift had started... had already work 2 day in e new shift... honestly speaking... i've not merged into e shift yet... i think 2 days in new shift, i've spoken less than wat i usually do in a cycle of work in my previous shift...it's not that i dun wanna talk or mixed ard with e new shift.. it's just tat i find it abit hard at this moment.. i dunno why too... i've been rather moody n to be exact, depressed shld be e more appropriate word. so much so tat on e 1st day of e shift, even b4 i go work, my mood is already very rotten.. n becos of tat.. i've quarrel with 1 of my best buddy in camp.. i dunno why i'll react tat way tat day.. i really dunno.. but tat's nth i can do, cos to her, i'm just a plain rude gal right now... i dun think i had ever spoken or sms her in this manner thruout 3 to 4 yrs of out frenship, but i just did tat... i think something is really wrong with me. Cheryl said i'm really being affected too much due to e shift reshufflement, n i truely agreed... My BB kena also... cos usually when he ask me abt work, i will hv lots of things to say regarding the shift.. but e sms i sent him e other day was "ya, Still Alive", i realli sounded very extreme lor... Even Cheryl asked me why am i so quiet... i just smile weakly at her n replied i dunno... I told BB, i dunno why, i just couldnt bring myself to smile... i dun feel gd.. i dunno why.. it's like me, myself, e old me had bee ntrapped somewhere... i'm just not me recently... i'm scare.. i'm realli scare... i hope i can find myself back real fast.. cos i dunlike e me now... pls pray that i can find me back soon...
today went to ikea n harbour front with my mama n popo. wanna get a new table for me room.. cos going to pass my lil sis my desktop, so dun not need e computer table now.. wanted to get some cabinet type table to replace it.. so tat e top part of e cabinet can place my lappy n fan while i still hv some drawers to contain all my rubbish... but i couldnt find wat i wanted... after that had sushi at harbour.. think popo quite tired. cos walk whole day...
hmm.. dunno wat i will do tml... BB busy with his website designing n launching of his company.. told him yesterday that he shld concerntrate on that first.. when everything is settle, then he bu chang me.. lol.. hmmm... dunno i can wait til tat long anot... cos now i'm in e state of depression.. plus if no meet up till e official launch, i realli dunno i will go mad anot... lol.. but i will try my best not to disturb bb now.. cos i noe he want to do his best for his company n i also dun wanna distract him.. i also wan him to do his best too.. lol.. cos my xia ban bei zi must kao ta liao mah... lol...
hmmm... i realised that maybe i'm still not tat depressed... cos as long as i'm not in camp, i'm still quite ok leh... hmmm.. or do i hv split personality... wah piang.. i'm realli gila already.. i dunno what am i typing already... argh... think better stop b4 i confuse myself n u all.. bye n tkcare...
posted by Ling at 11:35 PM
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